This is another subject given to me! And this time is a nice
one aha!
‘Is there the perfect man for everyone?’
My answer to this is no, there is no perfect man or perfect
girl out there, every relationship comes with its struggles but it is how we
deal with these that makes the relationship work or not. Something I do believe
though is that there is someone meant for everyone, someone that you are meant
to be with. I sound stupid when I say this but I used to think that I and this
person were meant to be together. I knew his flaws and I hated them but I couldn’t
help the feelings I had for him. It was as if I was meant to have these feelings
for him. To me we had been through so much together when really it had been a
one way relationship, me to him, I had been played. This went on for ages and
although I fully knew that he did not like me in that way, he still made me, in
the back of my mind hope and he would say things that made me think that he
did, even though he told me he didn’t. it took me a long time to step away from
the situation and by the time I had, I had done things that I regret now, but
at the time all I wanted was for him to like me and therefore I couldn’t see
what I was doing was wrong!
I thought that we were meant to be together because we
do/did have chemistry, well in my opinion we did. At the time I would have done
anything for him, just for him to compliment me, and every time he did, I felt
like I couldn’t say no to him! Any way I now realise that we are not meant to
be together and have accepted that although there is always going to be
something between us, because of those feelings I once had, nothing will ever
happen again! I am so glad I am out of that situation because it made me feel
so so so good for about a minute and then crap for the rest of the time. I hated
him when I first got out of the situation because I just thought he was using
me, but now I realise that I didn’t tell him this, I said yes, he didn’t know that’s
how I felt so how can I blame him?
I will always have these feelings for him; I know this and
hate it but have accepted it. I am finally happy with where I am at with my
relationships with people. I don’t think I have met the person I am meant to be
with yet, but I am happy with the people I am seeing so I guess that’s all I can
hope for and for the mean time am excited for what’s ahead because what else
can I do? I have the belief that there is that special person out there for
everyone, but for me, I might not have met them yet…
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